The next step.

Part of the reason I started this blog was to find something to do to keep my mind busy in the quiet moments. I wanted to do something I loved and that is writing. I might not be brilliant at it, I might not know all the correct grammar and even sometimes the correct spelling but it helps and I enjoy it so that’s all that matters.

I wanted to be open and honest about my Journey with anxiety. As I have said before it is such a taboo subject and people including myself are afraid to openly talk about it. I think it’s partly because for anyone that hasn’t been through it, it’s difficult to understand. On Friday I went to my first therapy session. I have decided that I need to work through my issues as I don’t want to be on my medication all my life. I want to be able to work on my own mind to make it strong enough to eventually be without it.

When discussing what road I wanted to go down the therapist gave me two options. She said that we could do as follows:

counselling sessions

These sessions would focus on past situations and we could talk them over and work through any feelings I had surrounding them.

Cognitive behavioral therapy

These sessions are designed to help focus on the right now. We can’t change our past and we can’t control our future. This therapy helps you learn how to focus on the now. It gives you techniques to cope with stressful and worrying situations.

I have decide to got for the CBT. I don’t really want to dwell on my past, Like I said it can’t be changed. I also don’t want to waste my time worrying about things that may or may not ever happen. I want to live in the now, I want to enjoy every minute I have and I want to raise my children with this mindset. I don’t want to pass any of my anxiety to them.

So this is the journey I have decided to take. I will update you all on my sessions and I will pass on anything that I learn. I hope sharing my story can help at least one person out.

Thanks for reading!

Amy X

 

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Date night!

Well we have made it to date night!! So far Penny hasn’t caught scarlet fever and Joey’s antibiotics have kicked in and he is feeling much better. So I have packed them up and will soon be taking them to my Mum’s house.

We are so excited to go out and actually enjoy a meal and not have to inhale it. I think its so important to have some time for just us and to actually have a conversation that isn’t interrupted by one of our children. I always get a bit anxious leaving the kids. Even though I know they are in good hands with my Mum I just like to be there to tend to their every need! I think this is maybe the second time I have left Penny even though she is almost 15 months, She has been such a bad sleeper but I am sure I will miss her more then she will miss me. Joey is very excited to go as he has been stuck in the house most of the week with scarlet fever.

I’m going to go and check their bags for about the 100th time now to make sure they have everything they need haha!

Thanks for reading!

Amy x