It’s that time again!

Its that time again where the kids are in bed and my Husband is on nights. I often look forward to these nights, some proper alone time to do what ever I like no interruptions. The reality is I’ve battled bath time and bed time alone and boy that can be hard work! I’m now sat here thinking about what the hell we did before we had the kids. I’m definitely the kind of Mum that is desperate for a break but the second I’m alone I miss my kids (yes even when they are in bed)

How easy was life before? Or should I say how boring was life before? I can’t even really remember what our house looked like pre kids. How did I fill up my time? It’s so funny how you just adapt to life changing without even realizing. I was saying to my husband today when I just had Joey I used to think wow how fast must I have done the shopping when I just had myself to think about, How easy was it for us to just jump in the car and go out for tea. Now we have Penny I often think how easy was it to just take one child out or tidy the house with just one child. I remember when Penny was first born the mission I thought it was to get them out the house and now its all just natural to me.

So I guess what I’m trying to say is man my life is boring without my Husband and kids haha. I’m going to go now and watch trash T.V and tuck into a tub of Ben and Jerrys and try and enjoy the peace while i can.

Thanks for reading.

Amy  x

 

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Messy house = Happy house

Some days i get so over whelmed by the need to have a clean and tidy house! You know what i’m talking about right? The day you clean your house get dressed and everything looks beautiful nobody pops round. The day your house looks like its been through a blender and you haven’t even looked in the mirror yet (Never mind put a bra on) is the day everyone decides to spring a nice surprise visit on you.

After having two kids I decided that its impossible to live in a ‘show home’ my two can make a mess faster then the speed of light. I’ve given up trying to follow them round picking up every toy they drop. I mean how many times a day do i really want to shove that same dinosaur in a draw? How many times do i really want to clean my conservatory doors just so someone can come along and lick it (yes i said lick) or rub their sticky little fingers down it. Once is enough for me just before bedtime when its time to relax! Even when the house is tidy there is always a dolly or a shark hanging about somewhere. I climb in to bed at night and there will be some kind or Pokemon shoved under my pillow.

I came to the conclusion that a messy home can be a happy home. Toys are all over, So what? Our house has had a dinosaur fight going though it today, There was a Pokemon battle in my kitchen and Peppa Pig and her family came for a tea party. We built towns out of bricks and we knocked them down. The bathroom had turtles swimming in it and some sort of prehistoric shark made a big splash in our bath. Try and keep your house tidy with all this going on Haha. Like the cheesy saying goes ‘please mind the mess, the kids are making memories’ its so true and any of your surprise visitors should understand this. Your kids wont remember a tidy house but they will remember the fun and the games. So Put that dettol down and leave those pots to soak a bit longer. Let your childhood imagination take over and enjoy those little children while they still want to play with you (you wont be cool for long haha)

Thank you for reading

Amy  x

But what do you do all day?

Taking on the role of stay at home mummy has been a lot harder then I thought it would be! As a child it was my dream, When all my class mates where discussing how they wanted to become nurses, vets and beauticians all I could think was how much I wanted a family. I know weird right?  When I started a relationship with Tony it became clear very early on that we wanted the same things a strong marriage and a couple of kids (and dogs) added in. Perfect!

When Joey came along we decided that I would only go to work a day a week for a bit of extra spending  money for us. We had worked out the costs of child care and we couldn’t justify spending the money I would earn on someone else raising our child. When Penny came along we decided that i would give up work all together and become a stay at home mum.

So what do I do all day? Watch daytime T.V with my feet up drinking tea right? Haha far from it! I get dragged out of bed at around 6 in the morning, normally by Joey ‘Mummy can we go downstairs? Mummy can we go downstairs? Mummy can we go downstairs?’ I make breakfast and rush around getting ready for the school run. My days are then filled with washing, cleaning, naps, crying (not always the kids ha), playing, laughing and just lately becoming a referee! It’s a continuous cycle of never getting a minute to myself even when going to the toilet I normally have a child watching! Its mentally hard some days but you know what? I wouldn’t change it for the world! I feel like we only get so long in life with our children before they are off spending their evening and weekends with friends and their days are filled with school. We might not have all the money in the world, We live in our cute little two up, Two down and we have holidays in England not abroad but I know I wont look back and feel like i missed out on a thing.

I have to give full credit to every Mum out there that goes out and works! I know when you get home you have all the Jobs I listed above to do! I honestly wouldn’t have the drive to do it after a full days work! You are all amazing and deserve a medal. I also Know that not everyone is as lucky as me to have the choice to stay at home and that must be so hard. At the end of the day being a Mummy is all about doing whats best for our family and no two Families are the same.

Thanks for reading!

Amy   x

 

The A word

I had people saying ‘its all in your head’ Do you honestly think I want to feel this way? – Sonia Estrada

 

I’m going to start my posts with a tough subject the anxiety! lets get it out the way so to speak. Mental health is still such a taboo subject even though I bet more then half the population suffers with some sort of Mental illness. We can’t see it so that makes us uncomfortable right? I really hope that it can change one day and I believe the more people that speak out the more this will happen.

I think I’ve probably always been a bit of an anxious person and prone to being/feeling depressed. My big problems started when my daughter Penny was born, she rushed into this world after a very fast 40 minute labour (ouch) a little beautiful bundle of 7lb 7oz love to complete our little family. Two weeks later we woke up one day to her not seeming herself she was red hot and we where unable to pick her up without her making a painful cry, my motherly instincts took over and I knew something must be seriously wrong. I took her temperature to see a result of 39 degrees on my new born baby that’s when the panic set in. We rushed her to A&E only to be to told of a long wait to even be assessed but we acted fast and managed to get a doctor to see her. She went through a lot of tests including two painful lumber punctures and then we where given the news nobody wants to here. Our gorgeous girl had sepsis! Thankfully we had caught it very fast and with a weeks stay in hospital and lots of antibiotics she made a full recovery. We always call her our tough cookie now. 

Something had changed in my mind now! I had these two beautiful children, How could I ever face life without them? I’m sure every mother has had these kind of thoughts before but mine just went to the extreme. I didn’t want to take my children out into a world where people could touch them and give them germs. I began avoiding places and not going out so people wouldn’t want to hold Penny etc. I started waking up every morning with this awful sinking feeling in my chest, the kind you get when you know you have a horrible day ahead of you but all that was ahead of me was a day with my two beautiful children. With the help and support of my family I went to the doctors and started treatment taking medication that I call my zest! They are my zesty pills because they bring my zest for life back (most days) 

A year on from here I still struggle daily and a couple of times it has all become to much and I have had to have my zesty meds upped, I have also decided that its time I started some talking therapy to help me overcome my issues and eventually create my own zest for life without the need for medication. I’m so lucky to have the support I have at home and I hope reading this can encourage other people to be strong and not be ashamed to speak out when and if you are struggling. 

Thanks for reading! (sorry it was a long one) 

Amy  x

My first go at Blogging!

Hi everyone!!

Sooooo this is my first go at blogging! Its something I have always wanted to try but never been brave enough. After some encouraging words from my husband here I am!

So for those of you that don’t know me I’m Amy, I’m 27 and a mother of two children. I have a (not so) little 3 year old boy called Joey and a little 1 year old girl called Penny. As I have already said above I also have a pretty fantastic (don’t tell him) husband Tony…I wont tell you his age he is cracking on abit haha.

I know what your thinking right? oh no not another one of those mummy blogs! I’m not going to  lie and say it isn’t because it probably will fall into this category. When I researched into blogging it says to write about something your at passionate about and for me this is my Family! I’m a stay at home mum and my whole life is filled with my children, Husband, dogs and guinea pigs (I’m abit of a crazy guinea pig lady). I also walk daily with anxiety so I will also blog about how this affects my life and hopefully this will help support or comfort anyone else going through this.

I guess I will finish up there for my first post. I apologise in advance for any spelling, punctuation or grammar mistakes I make. I’m no writing pro by any means! Thank you to everyone taking the time to read about me and my crazy little Lynch mob! Hope you enjoy.

Amy  x